Ramblings

Went to the hospital yesterday morning. 😱

**********P.S. rgds Donations 🙏 *********

Sadly I don't do meetups for donations, nor meet for meals (if you indicate under reason for donation that Mew needs to eat more) All donations are only in the form of bank transfer. 💵

I'm under 50kg for the first time in years but as long I don't faint, i'm fine. I don't need to eat at cafes or restaurants 🍽. I think sometimes these food even give me the runs! Who says you can't survive on one meal a day of just carbs& water. Even if you bring me out for a decent meal, it's going to set u back easily by $100. Other than a few nice foodporn pics and calories in my stomach which turns to shit in hours, what do I get other than getting fat?🐷 (If u follow my blog, u would have realised I don't post gym pics now as I can't afford gym now. I don't run and this weather is crazy.) This is why I don't go for 🍻 drinks or meals with customers or donors. (Count yourself lucky if u manage to buy me a frappe when we dealt) Shopping sounds nice but unless it's essentials, I can do without. I rather have that extra $$$ to cover my overdue bills for instance. 

Lol the telcos sent me hardcopy letters 📮now after they auto switch to electronic bill. I wonder how many months can I miss before they actually suspend my line (2?) I just hate calling in to hotline to beg time to waive off the extra admin fee to lift the suspension after bill is paid (hopefully).

This is why I don't hang out with people who know me through my site like on a date. Dating expenses only go to fund others, like the F&B sector. And u must be weird if u want to date a panties seller. Maybe u are just curious to know more about the person wearing the panties but I assure u, Novelty wears off fast.💀 If sexual advances aren't your agenda on wanting to know Mew better, there's really nothing else to chat about. U won't disclose your own details and everything about me is non-disclosure. This is for my own safety. Who knows when this relationship will sour and revenge kicks in? I'd some recent encounters as such. Seemingly-genuine guys wrote in expressing interest to know Mew for the real person that she is. After sharing my stories and secrets, he suddenly finds fault in my attitude??🙀 and says nasty things before telling me to fuck off. I feel nothing but naked inside. Who knows what will he do to me with this extra info? It's not the nice meals or treats that I'm missing. Last thing I want again is to have another Ryan or Sam Wong scammer hanging around my area to the extent I've to moved away to a new site like my competitors (the last I heard from reliable sources) 

Times like these I find that customers who actually have a fetish (not find me cos of curiosity or novelty) are the safest bunch. I 💚 my regulars. It's a wonderful feeling when we meet after sometime (skip the part about them trying all my competitors) before returning back to buy from me. I know at least they will respect me , my don'ts and that I never jack up my prices all these 3 years...

I'm a fan of Pretty Women. Watched it X times? Julia Roberts character confessed to Richard Gere that she does her clients but she won't kiss them. He was the exception. That's a 80s movie with a fairy tale ending but in reality ... I feel nothing but traumatised thereafter, getting forced kissed by clients and grabbed inappropriately just because they paid/donated to me. What's worst is their reasoning for that was I lead them on to thinking we had a connection. So if his subconscious thinks we have more than a connection, he's free to do me in the back of his car? I'm surprised I'm still sane till now with all these PTSD. 

I can't emphasize more but I have to say this again: Selling panties isn't a disguise for other sexual activities. I'm not a prostitute, or a venting hole for you big bosses to seek relief on your off-days.

Nuff said. Maybe I'll post more in my private blog. Till then~